I haven’t written one of these essays for awhile. It’s not due to lack of things to write about, rather due to a certain level of mild hysteria as I try to balance the combination of Shakespeare and work over a succession of fourteen hour days with a bunch of other social obligations thrown in. I used to be able to power through this kind of schedule without difficulty. This year, I’m feeling it. I’m wondering if my illness in March, which knocked the stuffing out of me was some sort of liminal border between middle aged Andy who can keep up with anything and older Andy who has to learn to pace himself and allow time for naps and other rest and downtime. I come home from a full work day topped with a three hour rehearsal and I’m not only barely able to move, I feel the need for an additional day of recovery time… which there is no time for.
We’re five rehearsals into The Tempest, or about 20% of the budgeted rehearsals. It’s about 2/3 blocked and the ideas are starting to come together. Most rehearsals have gone smoothly. Tonight’s was a bit more chaotic as I had the first rehearsal with my chorus of spirits (all eight of them) who come in and out and provide a certain amount of comic relief. I’m using them to break up the lengthy exposition scenes that make up the first forty percent or so of the play and to give Ariel some backup. After watching how things went, I know I have to do a lot of refining and shaping but I think my basic ideas are OK.
It’s ridiculously hot and humid locally and promises to stay this way for at least the next ten days. The HVAC in the church cafetorium in which we rehearse and perform is having difficulties keeping up so it’s a bit warm. Fortunately we aren’t having to work under incandescent stage light or anything else that adds to the ambient temperature or we would all be small puddles of sweat by the end of rehearsal. I really despise Alabama summers. Nearly thirty years now and I dislike them as much as ever. October can’t get here soon enough.
Exactly one year from today, I plan on offiially retiring. There are things that might move that date one way or another over which I have minimal control but in my mind, my last day of work will be June 30th, 2027. Let the countdown begin. I should get one of those clocks that shows the number of days untill retirement and watch those 525,600 minutes dribble away. I’m not sure what this next year is going to look like. I don’t have any performance gigs contracted past August. I do have some trips booked, especially in the fall but holiday period is uncertain. There are a few things coming up in the spring I’m interested in getting involved with but I don’t have any dates as of yet to begin piecing things together so I can make decisions on what shows I can audition for and which ones won’t fit.
I have no special plans for the long weekend other than catch up with work. I’m way behind on progress notes. a theater company board retreat, a friend’s cabaret show, a dinner date, a birthday lunch, a play and a few other things ate up this past weekend and I could get little of the usual stuff done. I shall not miss the hours spent every weekend documenting my clinical endeavors once I leave clinical practice. It’s one of the many reasons I’m retiring. The data entry is more important to the system than the actual clinical care. Healthcare has become all about big data set manipulation and management. And the AI boom is going to make all of this much worse. I don’t envy my junior colleagues their careers. Balancing the needs of administration and corporate on the one hand and the demands of the Boomers who do not believe in the realities of aging on the other.
The big news of the day is the Supreme Court actually upheld the constitution and stare decis for the first time in some years when it came to the Birthright Citizenship case. Looking back at the decisions of SCOTUS over the last few years, the contortions of logic proffered to get the result desired by certain political movers and shakers, has given me a severe case of vertigo. While that one may have come down on the side of precedent and textual reading, there are plenty of others which did not such as the Slaughter decision which threw out nearly a century of precedent which protected independent agencies from executive overreach and more or less reinstitutes the spoils system. And then there’s the decision which builds on Citizens United to more or less let unlimited dark money flow through political parties to candidates.
Meanwhile, ICE continues to round up the innocent and shove them in de facto concentration camps, we’re burning through billions in a weird quasi-Iranian war, the social circle of the executive is busy enriching themselves at the public purse, a wholesale destruction of Washington DC infrastructure, a dismantling of the systems that built and supported the post war society with its liberal consensus, a head of CMS who showed he did not understand how health insurance worked in recent testimony, a head of HHS who promotes fringe theories and junk science, and there still hasn’t been a proper release of the Epstein files or a single investigation or prosecution of the crimes contained therein.
I think I need a valium. Or maybe a quaalude