August 12, 2023

I’m tired of writing about Covid. I really am. A thousand pages and three hundred thousand words of The Accidental Plague Diaries was enough to exhaust me on the subject and everything I could possible say about it. But, as much as I may be done with Covid in this the first ‘normal’ summer since the summer of 2019, it is not done with us. There’s been very little media coverage of current pandemic trends but medical social media has been starting to light up over the last few weeks with all sorts of ominous warning signs. The prevalence of virus in wastewater samples doubled over the course of July and is still increasing rapidly. Pediatric admissions in the greater New York area are at their highest since the summer of 2020, the early days of the pandemic. Lab test positivity rates are soaring in various spots. It’s difficult to get confirmation on these reports or truly see national trends. The CDC website seems to be the best source for up to date information currently but it’s only as accurate as the data being forwarded to it by our patchwork system of public health departments, many of which are not functioning well in the wake of pandemic burnout and political chicanery.

The local numbers here in Birmingham seem to be increasing, but not soaring and, from what I can tell, hospital numbers and death rates haven’t increased appreciably but those are lagging indicators and it may some weeks before they start to rise in response to the current increase in infection rates. As our long hot summer continues (and I cannot begin to tell you how tired this Seattle boy is of temperatures in the 90s with high humidity), there is a continued push toward indoors with air conditioning activities and, given climate change, we may be looking at continued summer waves of infectious disease due to this phenomenon. What am I doing personally? Living my life. Planning on a fall booster. Keeping my hands washed. I haven’t gone back to masking in public yet but that may be coming.

A Midsummer Night’s Dream, which seems to have suffered from every other disaster imaginable during its rehearsal period other than a Covid outbreak amongst cast and crew, opened last night and I couldn’t be prouder of the company for the end result. Sixteen performers, many of whom had never worked with Shakespearean text and a crew of seven came together and, with a budget approximately equal to what would spend at McDonald’s to feed a family of five, created a fast moving, funny, summertime romp through the woods which engrossed the audience and kept them chuckling for two and a quarter hours. As for my work, I don’t know how to gauge it. I can never judge my own artistry as a performer or creator. The one thing I can judge is that I think I met my goal, which should be one of the chief goals of any community theater, and helped build an ensemble, a community out of disparate individuals, getting them to create something that none could do on their own. Each actor or technician brings something unique to the show and I have favorite moments from all of them. (Including a last minute gag thrown in final dress involving a white plastic chair – it’s very Alabama).

I’ll turn up at all the performances I can to cheer them on from the back but my job is finished. I’m not sure what’s next for the theater career. There’s a couple of things out there in the ether and I have a few auditions I have to put together this next week. Once things are settled and contracts are signed, I’ll let people know. I’m pretty sure that whatever it is will not involve directing Shakespeare. I wouldn’t mind doing it again but it does take a lot of thought and mental energy to turn those four hundred year old texts into something fresh and relevant to today. They are so brilliantly written that it’s possible and will always be possible. Except, perhaps in the state of Florida where school districts are banning high schoolers from reading the plays due to ‘racy’ elements and replacing them with ‘excerpts’. Really. They should just shovel the whole canon into the dumpster and replace them with copies of Lamb’s ‘Tales from Shakespeare’ and go full early Victorian. The bowdlerization has already been done. Don’t waste effort.

I’m just getting to the point where I’m rolling my eyes at the political news from all over. The sense of desperation in word and action rolling off of the Republican party as it crashes into the unyielding walls of demographics, science, and cultural attitudes would be funny if it didn’t have such real world consequences. They hitched their wagon to a particular star and I think they’re about to find out that actions have consequences. We may find that eventually the GOP is going to go the way of the Whigs to be replaced by another conservative party that will accept logic, science and reality. But I’m not holding my breath.

I’m very sad about the news out of Maui regarding Lahaina, a lovely town which I have visited many times and was a particular favorite of mine and Steve’s. We made a number of Hawaii trips together during our years in California as it was our tropical beach getaway. Steve hated seafood (he always ordered Chicken when we went out to dinner there) but he loved the ambiance of sitting on the terrace at Kimo’s with the waves lapping just below our table. We were having dinner there one night, sometime back in the 90s when a large bustling family group came in and proceeded to get rip roaring drunk at a nearby table. Everyone, that is, except the babe in arms (although I really don’t know what was in his bottle). Late in their meal, grandpa got up and picked up the baby and was dancing around the room with it when he tripped, fell and the baby shot out of his arms and struck a planter. The baby, being none to happy about this, began to wail, the mother began to shriek and, in her desperation to reach the baby tripped over grandpa and down she went. She got up with a bloody nose. The sight of the blood made someone at another table vomit their dinner all over the place. We decided it was a good time to leave and made a beeline for the lobby and paid our check there. We had no interest in remaining in a scene straight out of the Marx Brothers.

Time for me to head off to today’s performance of Midsummer to egg the cast on to another great performance.

August 4, 2023

I came home from work today around 4:30. Laid down on the bed intending to take the weight off my feet for a few minutes and woke up several hours later. I guess it’s the end of another work week full of the usual craziness of aging adults and their families, to be made even more fun this week as it’s my weekend on call. Things dealt with over the last few work days include a sixty something alcoholic in a shot house full of drifters who can no longer walk, a demented older woman who decided the best way to greet her sitters was with a hammer, a family who are demanding that we find some way to care for their bed bound dying relative other than through hospice services, and a chronic pain patient with whom I had the same lengthy conversation I have every six months or so on why increasing opioids to narcotizing levels is a really bad idea when you’re in your late eighties. It never ends. In some ways it feels like it’s gathering steam and rushing at us faster and faster. I don’t know if that’s the changes in mental and physical health courtesy of the pandemic or if my rather deep well of patience is finally starting to run dry. We shall see.

Speaking of the pandemic. Here’s the latest. It’s not easy to find good data these days what with the end of the emergency and the dissolution of central public health data collection back to the patchwork of fifty states 3,000 counties and 350 cities that make up the country. From what I have been able to piece together, the number of Covid cases has roughly doubled over the last month and seems to be on the increase. The most reliable testing these days is wastewater surveillance which can be done passively on populations and it seems to bear this out. Rates seem to be a bit higher in the southern US than the northern, likely due to the hot weather and people indoors in poorly ventilated public spaces trying to escape from the excessive heat. The good news is that even though the number of cases seems to be increasing substantially (and I hear of a friend testing positive pretty much on a daily basis), the number of hospitalizations for Covid and Covid complications hasn’t gone up significantly. The wall of immunizations and natural immunity from prior infection seems to be holding for now. Will it continue to hold? Who knows. I keep getting asked if another booster is warranted. The latest is that a fall booster is reasonable for those in older age groups or with immunocompromise. Not because there are nasty new variants making the rounds, but because the effectiveness of the vaccine seems to wane some with time and giving it a boost seems to help with overall protection. I’m currently planning on getting a boost in September for myself but I am watching various medical news sites to see if there’s better or updated information before I make a final decision.

One week, will it never be right? This time next week A Midsummer Night’s Dream will be up in front of its first paying audience. It’s coming together and there are some very good things starting to happen on stage and most of the cast are bringing their full energies to the proceedings. There are a few who need to spend the next few days with their noses buried in their books and a few others who need to get a little less distracted in rehearsal by non-show related things but that’s typical. I can see the show I want an audience to see coming to life within all of the extraneous issues we’ve had to deal with (injuries and illnesses, tech issues, missing pieces) and ultimately it’s going to be comic romp that it needs to be and which I think is close to Shakespeare’s original intent. He didn’t write it as a high falutin comedy of manners for the court, he wrote it as jolly good time for the groundlings. Next week will be the last few chances to bake the souffle and hope that it doesn’t fall flat when it gets pulled out of the oven.

I’m trying not to read too much into the political news of the moment. It’s become clear that a portion of the population has decided to reject science, rational thought, critical reasoning, and basic morality for some sort of primitive tribalism whose tenets and creed depend on the whims of a very small number of people with very high public profiles. They can continue to take over the various political apparatuses that make the country function but, when in the locales they do succeed in imposing their worst instincts, they start driving the educated and rational away, I wonder who they think are going to provide their medical services, run their power grids, keep their banking system operational and all of those other things that depend on science and reason. Faith can only take you so far. The exodus has begun from the universities and medical systems and other highly skilled employment disciplines of Florida and Texas. I wonder who they think they’re going to find to replace them? Given other actions, immigrants are out…

I’ve been asked to appear in a play late this month. I would usually say yest without hesitation but this one opens only two weeks after Midsummer and I don’t think I have enough time to learn the role what with everything going on at work. My sixty plus year old brain just doesn’t learn and retain lines as easily as it once did. I’ll have to take a look at it. If the line count isn’t too heavy and the blocking is relatively simple I just might manage it. Another one of those we shall sees. There seem to be a lot of those this evening.

I feel somnolence coming on again. I think it’s time for a handful of peanut M&Ms and some bad television. If I let myself sleep in tomorrow morning I may be back up to fighting strength. God knows when I’ll get the 19 progress notes unfinished from this week done but that’s an issue for another day.

July 30, 2023

Facebook reminded me that six years ago today, I was in the pulpit at church and gave the following sermon. Following the wrenching changes of the pandemic, I thought it might be a good time to repost it as it’s even more pertinent now. The political situation is a bit different than it was when this was written but the general underlying issues haven’t changed. If anything, the pandemic has worsened them.

HERE BEGINNETH THE SERMON

Many long years ago, when I was in college, I took a course in modern philosophy. It was full of rather incomprehensible readings by authors such as Buckminster Fuller and Noam Chomsky, most of which I forgot soon after the final. The one piece that has always stuck with me was a unit on what is known as moral reasoning. In it, we were posed with questions regarding what was right or wrong in various scenarios. Our answers were supposed to show how developed we were but probably proved that we were thinking as college sophomores, with all that entails.

One scenario we were presented with was something like this. You are a parent with an only child. Not a situation most of us could easily identify with being in our late teens and early twenties and Stanford students who weren’t thinking about reproducing yet. Heck, we weren’t even thinking about sex all that much. School was pretty overwhelming. Anyway, back to being a parent with an only child. One day, we were told, our child becomes ill with a dread disease. It’s OK though; there is a medicine that can cure them. Off we go to the druggist to obtain this miracle medicine. The druggist tells us that he indeed has the medicine we seek. He created it himself, patented it and is the sole source -no other druggist is allowed to sell it. In casual conversation, he mentions that it costs him about two hundred dollars to produce a course that will cure an afflicted child. However, because he is a good capitalist and has his own expenses, he sells it for two thousand dollars for a course of treatment. We now find ourselves in a quandary. We can only raise a thousand dollars to save the life of our child. No amount of pleading will make him lower his price. We are not about to let our child die so that night, under cover of darkness, we break into the druggist’s shop and steal the medication we need to save our child. The question we were asked at the end of the exercise is who is in the wrong? Is it the druggist for using his monopoly power to deny a dying child access to life saving treatment? Is it us, as a desperate parent, who commits a burglary to save our child? Perhaps it’s our child who has the effrontery to create this situation by falling ill. Maybe it’s society as a whole for creating these impossible moral dilemmas in the first place.

I don’t remember how the class navigated the ethics of the problem. I think our solution was something along the lines of stealing the medication but repaying the druggist anonymously on the installment plan, it’s the kind of moral reasoning you find in college students. However, the whole thing came up to me again as I watch our society grapple with the impossible moral dilemmas we have created within our health care system. We, as a people, have spent decades allowing our health care system transform itself from a traditional service to a population into a behemoth of a big money industry and, with this transformation, we have created a whole series of problems that have been buried for far too long and which, like a cancer, continue to metastasize and sicken us all.

Every society that has ever existed, from Ancient Egypt, to medieval Europe, to the primitive tribes of the Amazonian jungle, has created a health care system. It’s part of our social DNA. As we gather in groups and form bonds of caring and community, some of us have always specialized as healers. Sickness, pain, injury, and other dis-eases are bound to strike and healers are those charged with interceding with the gods in order to restore balance to the body and harmony to the universe. Modern medicine retains vestiges of this priestly origin. Modern American doctors still wear ceremonial robes. We also carry ceremonial instruments of dubious utility. Those stethoscopes we carry are nowhere near as helpful as a chest x-ray and an echocardiogram. We also proffer healing magic in the form of a little slip of paper covered with incomprehensible script written in Medieval Latin known as a “prescription.”

I’ve always wondered about this god power myself. Over the third of a century that I’ve been in medicine I’ve had patients and their families look at me as if I’ve been imbued with some sort of supernatural substance when I have made a correct diagnosis or adjusted the medications in just the right way. I don’t get it. I know myself relatively well and I’m more Clark Kent than Superman. I struggled with this for a while until I fell back upon what I learned in high school and college about theater. When I understood that the white coat is a costume and ‘doctor’ is a role you inhabit, it got a bit easier. Some of us, however, forget to take the role off when we take the coat off and start to assume that we are something more. It can become a real problem when that attitude slops over into areas for which we were not trained… like politics.

The goal of these health care systems, no matter where you find them, has always been roughly the same, no matter the means they use to achieve them: get rid of dis-eases and by dis-ease I mean a whole plethora of things from infections to injuries to the physiologic changes of aging to the biological hazards of a normal condition such as pregnancy. The patterns are similar from Abyssinia to Zimbabwe. A previously healthy person becomes dis-eased and, when they reach the limit of their knowledge base or patience with the process, they turn to the healer to remove the problematic agent and restore balance and health. It’s been going on for the whole six thousand years of recorded human history and there is archeological evidence that it’s been going on for thousands of years before this. It leads to what we now call the acute care model of medicine. Something happens to me, I feel acutely ill and I depend upon the system to cure me, or at least make me better in some way.

For most of American history, the American health care system worked the same way. Actually, in the early years it wasn’t much of a system and didn’t work terribly well for anyone. In the colonial period and into the early republic, most health care was provided at home through family lore. A few physicians existed in cities for the treatment and comfort of the well heeled. The 19th century didn’t fare much better, with the majority of doctors self-styled through apprenticeships and dubious educational institutions.

The health care system, as we understand it now, started to coalesce in the period between the two world wars. For the most part, those with dis-eases were still cared for at home. The majority of physicians were general practitioners who cared for the community in which they lived. They had a consulting room, usually at their home and then made the rounds to check up on their patients in their Model T or mule cart, pulling up to mansions and hovels to do what was possible for the ill, instruct the families of the afflicted in proper nursing care and be a presence for comfort while nature took its course, one way or another. You could find some specialists in larger urban centers, gathered around money and the multispecialty clinic began to take form under models pioneered by the brothers Mayo in Rochester, Minnesota.

There were hospitals, but as medicine was a pay as you go cash business, most people tried to avoid them. In rural areas, especially during the depression when money was hard to come by, barter systems existed and the old trope of paying the doctor in chickens or a bushel of potatoes was born. This worked fine in communities where everyone knew everyone else but could not work in larger urban settings or with the local hospital board. Therefore, most hospitals had very narrowly defined mission. They were places capable of doing aseptic surgery, usually performed for life saving reasons such as the removal of a gangrenous gall bladder. They were places that could take care of people who did not have an intact family structure to provide nursing care during a period of dis-ease. They would protect communities by separating those who could be dangerous due to their potentially infectious state (the TB sanitarium) or because of erratic behavior (the asylum). They were small by current standards. Usually consisted of large open wards with minimal privacy, and were generally underfunded.

Medicine was a not for profit sector of the economy. Health care was regarded as a market good, but not one that people in general were interested in selling, as there wasn’t much money in it. Hospitals, descended from medieval religious institutions that tried to provide humane care for the poor and dis-eased following the example of Christ, were frequently chartered and run by religious organizations, especially Catholic, to provide a particular social good to the community. Those not run by religious organizations were usually publicly financed by cities, counties, states, and other governmental entities. Again, not for profit entities with specific social mission. The system here wasn’t that different than the system in the rest of the developed world. In fact, during the first third of the 20th century, it was far behind some of the great European centers of learning.

The first inklings of change, which would transform the US health system from its backward and bucolic roots, occurred in Dallas, Texas in 1929. At the time, Baylor hospital noted that the majority of their hospital beds were empty more often than not. The overhead of a nearly empty hospital was causing financial strain on the institution. At the time, the average American spent more on cosmetics than on health care (you tended to doctor yourself and your family with inexpensive over the counter remedies) and almost no families could afford a large hospital bill, so they were places to be avoided except in extreme circumstances. The fine folk who ran Baylor wanted to get their beds occupied by people who weren’t already at death’s door so they came up with the idea of having people buy health care in the same way they bought other consumer goods, a little bit at a time. They approached the Dallas teachers union with this idea. For an ongoing charge of fifty cents a month, members of the union could go to Baylor hospital for free.

Without necessarily intending to, they invented the modern concept of health insurance. Other hospitals saw value in this idea and started to offer similar deals, mainly to large groups of organized individuals such as unions and large employers. Eventually, these plans developed a new name, Blue Cross.

They spread throughout the country but most people didn’t buy into them until World War II upended the American economy. Wage and price controls left over from the Depression remained in place in the early 1940s just when the war fueled industrial machine required more and more workers to meet demand. Unable to offer higher salaries, large employers turned to fringe benefits to attract and retain workers. A court decision in 1943 declaring health benefits to be tax-free made medical insurance especially attractive to industry and this was further codified in the mid 50s at the behest of big business. By 1955, an employer based health system was here to stay. The rest of the industrialized world, recovering from the depredations of the war and the destruction of their infrastructures, did not move this direction. They needed a more cooperative model of health care leading to what Americans were decrying by the mid 1950s as socialized medicine. McCarthyism took a toll on American health care.

Many of us came of age during the period 1955-1980. We all remember health care as easy to obtain, Blue Cross being welcome everywhere, a stable family doctor who knew us well and who would both see us in the office or in the hospital if we happened to get ill. We carry that ideal around in our head as if that’s the way health care always was and always should be, rather than a unique time in a unique economy. At that time, our health care was the envy of the world, and we still carry the idea of American exceptionalism in medicine with us. Our hospitals were better, our doctors more knowledgeable, our research universities making exciting discoveries. The sparing of our society from the physical damage of World War II, our industrial capabilities allowing pharmaceuticals, especially antibiotics, to be mass produced, and our welcoming of the great medical scientists of Europe fleeing Nazi persecution, all led to us being the envy of the world.

Of course, this employer based system left certain groups out in the cold. Predominantly those who were post-employment, or retired. The Roosevelt administration toyed with adding health care to its New Deal social programs such as Social Security but there was a feeling that this was a bridge too far and with an increasing need to focus on the looming crisis of World War II, buried the idea. The Truman administration resurrected the idea of publicly funded health insurance for non-employed persons in the late 1940s but the rising tide of McCarthyism made any such social experiments suspect at best and communist at worst. The legislative language of the 1940s remained in draft form, and, when the political moment became right a generation later, the Johnson administration passed the Great Society programs including Medicare for elders, the disabled, and retirees and Medicaid for the impoverished, transforming the health care landscape in ways the original authors could not foresee.

Medicare and Medicaid were created to solve a particular problem. Non-employed populations had no access to hospital care. They couldn’t afford it. When they did turn up at a hospital, which was predominantly a not for profit institution established to provide a specific social good for either civic or religious reasons, it was the mission of the hospital to provide care first and ask questions about finances later. A generation of medical progress had taught the American population the ideal of American exceptionalism in medicine all too well and hospitals were rapidly transforming from the backwater of the health system to the shining centerpiece. It was also the hospitals that provided the muscle to push Medicare and Medicaid through a semi-recalcitrant congress, a battle reminiscent of today’s battles over health care legislation. Like all such battles, there was an equal and opposite reaction lobbying to maintain the status quo. In those days, that was represented by the AMA which viewed the programs as socialized medicine in another form and inherently bad for American Health. A massive propaganda campaign, led by an out of work B movie actor named Ronald Reagan, tried to change the path of the country and defeat the proposal but did not succeed.

The passage of Medicare, especially, was a huge success and there has rarely been a more popular social policy in American history. The elimination of large hospital bills through Medicare A and the significant reduction of outpatient expenses from Medicare B rapidly lifted the older generation out of medically induced poverty. It also opened the floodgates for federal dollars to start rushing through the health care sector of the economy, changing it within another generation from a relative backwater to a big business. The rules of the game in the immediate post war era, which defined health care as a social good that should be open to all, began to change.

The first major change was the introduction of the for profit company into health care. The profit motive was not new. Even in the good old days, doctors and hospitals tried to make money, but, having developed out of religious orders and civic institutions, nearly every organized piece of the system was not for profit. Moneys made were rolled back into the system in the form of improvements to facilities, new discoveries, or improved salaries for workers, not to pay dividends to shareholders. Laws required health insurance to be not for profit and all of the original Blue Cross companies of our youth were structured this way.

More and more money in the sector, however, did not go unnoticed by the financial sectors of our economic system. There had never been a lot of interest from Wall Street in health care in the past. The money was too small and the profits too slim, but billions from the federal government were a different matter and the system began to evolve. Bit by bit our country transformed our health care system into a health care industry. It began in earnest in 1973 when the Nixon administration, after personal lobbying of Nixon by his old friend industrialist Charles Kaiser, allowed health insurance companies and other health entities to operate as for profit businesses. Wall Street was ready and slowly, but steadily, the health economy moved from local control under a small business model to larger and larger corporations, often regional or national in nature. With these changes, a business mentality took over. Medicine stopped being about the individual and idiosyncratic dyad of healer and patient and became about the delivery of standardized product in the most efficient manner. With typical American ingenuity, our health care industry became more and more adept at this task in a for profit model.

As the health economy has grown and evolved over the last forty years, this process has accelerated and perfected itself. The healers are no longer in charge, the administrators are. They are the ones who speak the language of finance and big data sets and deliverables in an increasingly complex health care world and that’s what it’s all about. Like any mature industry, health care is now functioning in the United States exactly as designed. We still want to believe that it’s all about caring and compassion and making the lame to walk and the blind to see. It’s not. Our present health care industry is about what all modern industry is about – transferring the profits of that industry to the owners of that industry and it does that very, very well. So well in fact that it has become nigh on impossible to change the industry in any fundamental way. Any major change is likely to negatively impact the bottom line of various industry players and that cannot be allowed to happen despite the catastrophic fall of American health standards when ranked by the World Health Organization. Among developed nations, we’re dead last.

Among all nations, we’re 37th, right between Costa Rica and Slovenia. In some places, our child and maternal mortality statistics are worse than sub Saharan Africa. It’s not that American doctors are rotten or that we’ve lost knowledge and ability. People still flock from all over the world to our hospitals and to study in our medical research institutions. It’s just that we’ve changed the fundamental purpose of why we have health care from health to wealth and that no longer keeps wellness at the top of the reasons for it to exist, unlike nearly every other advanced world system.

Now I could go on for another half hour or so on specific flaws in our health care system and thinking such as our siloing of care by specialty, our overdependence on specialists, our refusal to accept death as a natural consequence of life, our training of the population to become creatures of pharmaceutical habit, and all the rest of the issues that many of us are familiar with but I’d rather bring this back closer to home and to who we are as UUs and why we spend our time with this religious community rather than one of the many other fine religious establishments in town.

Our first principle states that we affirm and promote the inherent dignity and worth of every person. The Universalist tradition comes from the idea of universal salvation. No one, but no one gets left out. To me, a church that ascribes to this worthy ideal must, by its very nature, ascribe to a health system that is similarly universal or it is vacating one of its core reasons for existence. We don’t have an everyone in system in this country but we have been cautiously moving that direction in recent decades and over the course of the last eight years, since the adoption of the Patient Protection and Affordable Care Act, a couple of very valuable things have happened. First, the number of people with access to the system increased enormously, more or less cutting the uninsured rate in half. Second, with access to health insurance, fewer health costs had to be borne by families and the rate of personal bankruptcy in the country has also fallen by half.

However, we now live in a different time. As a society, at least as far as our electoral choices reflect, we have firmly come down on the side of health care not being a right, but a privilege which should only be available to those with means. Our representatives in congress have been busy crafting legislation designed to enable the market forces behind health care to succeed at the expense of the people health care is supposed to serve. It doesn’t really matter whether you believe the congressional budget office, the department of health services, or industry trade groups regarding the projected outcomes. No one is predicting that any of the effects will do anything to make access to health care more just and equitable. At the moment, the ACHA in the house, the BRCA and the so-called skinny repeal in the senate appear to be dead, but with a political party having staked its reputation on changing a flawed system, I don’t believe for a minute that they’re going to stay dead. Especially in the reality television circus of current DC politics. The calculus of the Senate, in particular, is likely to change in markedly in 2018 and John McCain’s decisive no vote is subject to the vagaries of his own health needs.

The thing that bothers me the most about the current debate over health care is that it spends all of its time looking at how to cost shift from public sources of funding to individual and private sources of funding while spending no time at all looking at the reasons why our health care system is the most expensive in the world. The American health care system consumes 17% of our gross domestic product. In no other industrialized country is it more than 11% of GDP. With an American GDP of 18.5 trillion dollars, reducing our spending in line with other economies would give us about 1.1 trillion more dollars a year to spend on other needs. Or to improve and rebuild our health system until it is once again, the envy of the world.

The other thing that bothers me is a rather insidious change in the language and framing of the discussion of health care. It’s no longer a discussion of how can we help people, it’s now a discussion of who deserves to be helped. Every time I look at the news, I see an elected public official musing about the other, often in terms of ‘the cheaters’ or ‘the entitled’, especially when it comes to people on the lower end of the socioeconomic spectrum. I thought we had gotten rid of differentiating the deserving poor from the undeserving poor during the Victorian era when economists started to recognize that poverty was usually the result of macroeconomic forces and not due to personal choices. Sober minded individuals, usually affluent white men, proffer rhetoric of ‘three strikes and you’re out’ in terms of life saving treatments, suggest that no access to health insurance is fine because there are always emergency rooms (showing a fundamental misunderstanding of how the health system works), or speak of millions of children and elderly being thrown off of Medicaid rolls as a good thing. In most states between a third and a half of children rely on Medicaid for health care. With major cuts, some of those children will die. Let’s call it what it is. Human sacrifice.

The idea of asking Americans to take responsibility for their own health rather than just assume that the health system will care for them is a laudable one but it’s not as easy as it seems. Imposing it from the top in a punitive way through fines or increased costs is only likely to drive people away from the system leading to disease being found later, at a more advanced stage and ultimately driving up costs. For it to work, we have to attack health literacy on a societal level. Starting early in life, people have to be taught how their bodies work and have to be taught that health is a partnership with a healer, not something that is done to them. This, of course will require a much more robust primary care system than we have in this country. We know how to build such a system but to do so, you have to have about three quarters of your physicians in primary care and one quarter in specialty care. The United States has the opposite proportions. It will also require more scrupulous honesty in American society about the naturalness and necessity of death (a whole sermon unto itself) and an understanding that a system that tries to cover all possible treatments for all people all of the time is doomed to failure and that certain types of choices must be made and should be approached with science and rationality – both qualities currently missing from the American political system.

There is a huge problem with placing personal value judgments on health care and patients. It’s a lesson I learned early on in my medical training. I was a medical student in the mid 1980s at the height of the HIV epidemic. People were dying of a preventable disease due to our society and government’s unwillingness to understand marginalized populations. One day while on the internal medicine service, our team was caring for two HIV patients. One was a young man in his late teens or early twenties, the other a grandmotherly woman of sixty or so. The young man was about as fey as they come. You could have seen the flames coming off him from space. His effeminate mannerisms were a kind of psychic armor helping him cope with the fact that he was unlikely to live to twenty-five. The older woman was the sort of woman you expected to bring you milk and cookies and tell you about your day while she knitted you some new wooly socks. My attending physician, a well-known internist in his fifties ended our rounds and walked away with the comment. “You know, it’s too bad that poor woman is an innocent victim of AIDS but that guy deserves it”. I was a little more familiar with the patients than he was. The young man was a hemophiliac who contracted it through his need for transfusions. He had never had a sexual relationship in his life and probably never would. The older woman was a swinger. Value judgments are a very slippery slope, which is why the Hippocratic Oath has read as it does for three thousand years. And, no matter how you slice it, no one ‘deserves’ disease.

Where does this leave us? To tell you the truth, I don’t know. I’m just one small individual in a stormy sea of a system that’s gone somewhat off the rails. I don’t have the power to fix it. All I can do is what I have always done, save the world one patient as a time. There’s an old Chinese proverb, some say a curse. ‘May you live in interesting times’. Well, these are interesting times and the health care system, which has always been a bit of a wild ride, is bound to get wilder. Hang on and fasten your seat belts.

Thank you.

July 24, 2023

It’s been a Monday. What does that mean chez Duxbury? It means a double clinic day (seeing patients at my UAB office all morning and all afternoon – I’m supposed to get an hour for lunch but given that the morning patients always run late and the afternoon patients are always there early, that hour is usually more like fifteen minutes) followed by an opera administrative meeting via zoom followed by a drive across town to arrive at rehearsal on time for two and a half hours of work trying to get Shakespeare on its feet for an opening in two and a half weeks followed by a drive back across town and coming home to two cats upset that no one has been home for the last fourteen hours to give then any kitty treats.

I’m feeling less tired this week. Perhaps I’ve gotten a second wind. Perhaps I’ve had enough nights of decent sleep. Perhaps I’m revved up as the show is getting to the point where we’re starting to stitch the scenes together into a coherent whole. (We ran the first half tonight for the first time. It’s rough in places and lines are not yet sure and firm but the general shape is coming together and the staging is flowing the way that I want it to with the human world within the proscenium and the fairy world of the woods spilling throughout the house). We do the same kind of rough work through of the second half tomorrow night and then I’ve arranged for a crash course in acting Shakespeare for them all from a professional to give them some tips that I just can’t, not being the trained pro that they sometimes think I am.

Tickets are now available on line. I’ll try to remember to put up a post with the link in the comments or later this week. It’s going to be an inexpensive way to spend an evening with some classic theater and some four hundred year old dirty jokes. Our ticket prices are cheaper than ‘Barbie’ and ‘Oppenheimer’, at least at my local multiplex which is one of the reasons I have not yet ventured out to see either. The American Theater may be heading back to its community roots rapidly given the current financial disasters besetting the industry. The model for professional theater (outside of Broadway, which is its own animal and which has more or less become a showcase for expensive and overlong theme park attractions that can get 1500-2000 butts in seats night after night, year after year) has been one of professional (union) and sem-professional (paid stipend, but non-union) companies presenting seasons where their cash flow has depended on a reliable subscriber base ordering up season tickets year after year. The pandemic has changed all that. Some of the subscriber base has died, some is uncomfortable going into closed quarters with others. Some simply got out of the habit of regular theater going during the shut down. But without that reliable income, budgets are out of balance, and companies are hanging on by a thread. Well regarded professional companies are canceling seasons, retrenching, reducing the size and scope of offerings, jettisoning experimental work and everyone is trying to figure out what is going to put butts back into seats.

From what I can tell, if a production speaks to an audience, it sells. The problem is that the professional/semi-pro theater hasn’t figured out who its modern audience is and therefore hasn’t been able to design seasons that will appeal. Not to mention, the all at once expense of season tickets isn’t necessarily easily born by those outside of certain demographics. The audience for theatrical entertainment is out there. Broadway does well (but it’s not necessarily aimed these days at a discerning theater audience). This past weekend at the movies where not one, but two auteur films not part of franchises or featuring superheroes both smashed box office records showed Hollywood that their recent anemic returns may have something to do with having shoveled out little other than recycled manure for most of the past decade. Our local theater companies routinely sell out shows by marketing the community aspects of local theater. Local talent, many of whom are as good as you will see anywhere out.

I ventured down to the Alabama Shakespeare Festival this past weekend to see their production of Cabaret. If you’ve been reading my musings for a while, you’ll know that’s one of those shows (along with Sweeney Todd and Into The Woods) that I’ll go see in almost any incarnation. The ASF is the only professional regional theater in the state. Tommy and I used to go routinely when they did festival programming when they ran multiple shows in rep – you could go down for a weekend and see four to six plays – half Shakespeare, half modern. They stopped doing that a number of years ago for a more traditional season form and making the trek to Montgomery for a single show just isn’t as appealing a proposition. Cabaret was a terrific production – incredibly well cast and performed with elements of Hal Prince, Donmar Warehouse/Studio 54 and the current London production all seamlessly blended. The staging of the title number was perhaps the most uncomfortable I’ve felt in a theater for a performer for a long time – which was a good thing. And the house was half empty on a Saturday night. It wasn’t a lack of PR. It wasn’t show quality. It wasn’t recognizability of the title. Something was still missing that was necessary to bring in what should be brought in. And until that missing piece is identified, we’re going to see the collapse of the professional theater industry in this country over the next decade.

My theater career will survive. It’s not professional and doesn’t depend on professional venues and companies. Community theater isn’t going to go anywhere. I’ll be able to perform on local stages, perhaps in somewhat scaled back productions depending on what budgets will allow and I and the other local thespians will continue to feed the need for story telling which creates a unique and intimate bond between performer and audience, something film cannot replicate. Imaginative directors and designers will come up with ways to transport audiences to other places and times with techniques to get them to suspend their disbelief and buy into so much cardboard and muslin and paint are what they purport to be. The budget for the original Broadway production of Oklahoma! was $83,000 in 1943 (roughly 1.5 million in today’s dollars). You couldn’t get a show anywhere near Broadway for that cost now. Most musicals are in the 20 million dollar capitalization range. Would it be so bad if we were to scale back and had simpler productions that fully engaged an audience and fewer flying DeLoreans? Just a thought.

If you’ve ever wondered what audiences saw in 1943, the University of North Carolina produced a meticulous recreation of the original production, researching the sets, the costumes, the lighting plots, the choreography (aided by a few of the dancers who were still living at the time), and every other aspect that had been archived away. It was professionally filmed. Act I –

Act II –

It’s quite the piece of theater history. I wish more of the classic shows would get this treatment.

July 20, 2023

I’ve been running on fumes this week. I think my age is starting to catch up with me. I normally can leave the house by 8, do a full work day, run to rehearsal, get home around 9:30 or 10, feed the cats and then lather rinse repeat. This week I’ve been straining to keep that up and I’ve had a couple of nights where I’ve felt exhausted by six pm, and I’ve fallen asleep at my desk and while being chauffeured to house calls by other staff more than is my usual want. Could be that my over sixty body and brain are calling on me to slow down a bit. Could be that the energies drained by three years of pandemic have somewhat altered my usual sleep/wake cycle. Could be a lack of caffeine in the system (although my usual coffee consumption isn’t much changed). Could be that my personal bouts with Covid have somewhat altered my physiology and I’m going to have to adjust to a new normal. Fortunately, I don’t have all that much down for the weekend other than putting in some tech time on Midsummer and a drive down to Montgomery to see Cabaret at the Alabama Shakespeare Festival. (You may have noticed that I try to see every production of that show I can).

Midsummer is coming together, bit by bit. We have three weeks until opening. Tickets are now available on line for those in the area who want to see what I’ve done to Shakespeare. The cast are slowly coming off book, becoming more and more comfortable with the scenes and flow of the show and I’m starting to figure out how to solve some of the technical issues we have given that I’m trying to create environmental theater in a cafetorium with minimal budget and inadequate lighting and sound. If I’m reading the tea leaves right, the end result is going to be rather enjoyable – it won’t make anyone forget Peter Brook’s RSC production of 1968 but it should be entertaining and engage the audience. At least I hope so.

A good friend of mine called this morning from where she lives in Tennessee, a small town in the part of the state that hosted the Scopes Monkey Trial a century ago. Similar things are brewing there now. The mayor and vice-mayor are coming after the town librarian for daring to put up a display of LGBTQ themed books for Pride month. There are meetings planned to pack the library board so they can fire the offending librarian and purge the library. My friend and the other liberals in town are trying to figure out how to stop the writing on the wall. I gave what little advice I could, including a suggestion that they play a satirical look at book banning written nearly seventy years ago which highlights how ridiculous it is. I am, of course, referring to ‘Pick a Little Talk a Little’ from ‘The Music Man’. I would also remind everyone that Scopes lost the court case but if that battle was lost, truth eventually won the war. As Galileo muttered as he was led out of the court after his heresy trial ‘Nevertheless, it still goes round the sun’.

That’s what I think we all have to hang on to at the moment while we all watch a once great political party try to legislate science, literature, and human nature out of existence because it disagrees with either their theology or their short term political needs. Truth will out. It’s unchanging. It’s why cross examination works. It’s why the scientific method has allowed most of us to live lives that would be considered full of unspeakable luxuries to the royalty of a previous age. You can pledge allegiance to alternative facts but the true ones are going to get you in the end. That doesn’t mean that those who prefer a society built on half truths and platitudes can’t do a heck of a lot of damage in the meantime. Things are going to get more and more interesting as time goes on.

However, demography is destiny. Immigration to this country, which was basically shut down in 1923 for racist reasons opened up again in the 1970s. Who emigrates? Generally not the well off and comfortable. Why should they. It’s usually the industrious but without resources who are desperate to build a better life for their children. The Baby Boom is a very white generation because of the lack of immigration during its engendering. The generations that come after, especially the Millennials and Generation Z are filled with the children of newer Americans and are heavily minority and have a very different perspective on the American story. The Leave it To Beaver ideals of the past are collapsing rapidly as those generations age. The Baby Boom is very close to beginning their mass die off which is why the urgency to try and rig the game for certain classes to hold political power at the expense of everyone else before it becomes demographically impossible to accomplish this. Will it happen? Some will try. There may be violence but ultimately its a project doomed to fail as 40% of the Boom generation dies in the 2030s and another 40% in the 2040s.

The aging boom will turn to the health system en masse in a few years demanding that it save them from the inevitable. They’ve gotten everything they’ve wanted from society through the years because of their sheer numbers. This time it won’t work. First off, the conversion of the health care system from a public good to a private profit center has made it impossible for it to function as originally designed. The system done broke and I see nothing happening to try and repair it coming down the pike. Second, this idea that force of belief trumps the natural order of the world is going to prove psychologically traumatic. I see it routinely even in earlier generations. Someone comes in saying ‘I’m 80 and I can’t do the things I could do twenty years ago’. And the next sentence is always along the lines of ‘But I heard of this person who’s 90 and who can (insert choice of activity here) – why can’t I do that?’ There is this failure to recognize that you heard about this person because they are an extreme outlier on the edge of the bell curve. People tend to internalize the outlier they hear about as the norm and question themselves. The world doesn’t work that way.

When I do retire, I have a feeling I’ll need to completely back out of medicine and let all my licenses and certifications go. Otherwise, I’m going to be getting calls and texts from everyone wanting help to stave off normalcy and I just don’t have the energy to deal with that. Perhaps if I retire to Burkina Faso…

July 12, 2023

I’m trying to decide what to write about this evening. One of the downsides of the end (or at least the pause) in the pandemic is that I can’t just look at the latest Covid related headlines, check the statistics and assume the muse with hit me with an angle that will let me churn out another entry in the now completed Accidental Plague Diaries. For the ten or twelve of you eagerly awaiting the publication of the third and final volume, it is complete and edited. It’s being put into proof form as I write this. Once that’s completed and thoroughly checked, I’ll have a publication date. Sometime between mid August and October is likely. When the third volume comes out and the whole saga is complete, all 300,000 words and roughly a thousand pages, I’ll have to think about what to really do with the project. I really need a PR firm but that’s a bit outside of my budget.

I could write about politics. About how one of the senators that purports to represent me in ‘the world’s greatest deliberative body’ seems to have zero understanding of white nationalism, racism, or any other ism when you get down to it. Unfortunately, we’re stuck with him for another four years. Perhaps he’ll have started allowing senior military appointments again by them (personally holding them all up in a fit of pique as the military believes that reproductive decisions should be made by physicians, not polticians). I don’t quite understand why the senior party leadership don’t take him out behind the woodshed but they appear to still worship at the altar of Ronald Reagan’s eleventh commandment ‘Thou Shalt Not Speak Ill of Any Fellow Republican’. The problem with this, in the social media age, is that the most extreme voices are being amplified, the Overton window gets yanked further to the right, and silence becomes complicity as the business of governing becomes more and more dysfunctional.

I could write about the war on education and literacy happening left, right and sideways in the name of protecting the children. Moms for Liberty has sprung out of nowhere in two years to become a well oiled machine pushing policies completely lacking in educational value, destructive to minorities of all stripes, and of dubious morality at the local and state levels. I am very suspicious of any grassroots group that goes from zero to a hundred in a very short period of time. That doesn’t happen without a lot of money and organizing knowhow. So I always ask two questions – who is funding it and who benefits? It doesn’t take a lot of poking around to see that the money and organizational savvy is coming from the usual suspects on the right – groups like the Alliance for Defending Freedom. Groups that are funded by a handful of right wing billionaires whose goal is the overturning of the New Deal society and the eradication of any constraints on capitalism and if people and social institutions are hurt by their methods, it’s necessary collateral damage. Those that would truly benefit are those who are investing in the materials necessary for alternative right wing private education. They would love to see the public schools knocked down and replaced with the equivalent of the Southern White Academies that sprang up as a response to desegregation, but on a national level. Well funded with public dollars, but closed to those who are not like them with the remaining public system underfunded for those that would not be welcome in the gated community.

I could write about the continued slow collapse of the health care system in the US. My last checks showed that if you were to move new to Birmingham and wanted to establish with a new primary care physician, the earliest appointments available now are in November. In another year, it will be more than six months. The combination of the aging of the boom, the increase of the population, and the pandemic’s creation of a significant new population faced with the challenges of chronic illness are leading to a spike in demand. The retirement of roughly 20% of the workforce, the economic pressures which push newly minted providers into certain high paying specialty areas, and the massive growth in administrative hassle factors are at the same time reducing supply. It’s not going to get any better for the foreseeable future. Add to that the paralysis in long term care systems due to a lack of workforce, supply chain issues, and a fixation of the system for short term profit over long term problem solving pretty much guarantees havoc is going to reign for some time. And people wonder why I am contemplating retirement.

I could write about the experience of turning fifteen enthusiastic community volunteers into a troupe of Shakespeareans. They’re turning up for rehearsal, they’re full of energy, they’re working on their lines. I seem to have made some relatively smart decisions conceptually on how to put A Midsummer Night’s Dream together so that the show should be a reasonable entertainment when it is completed and ready for the public as of August 10th. That’s four weeks from tomorrow. I’m going for a sense of brio and summer popcorn flick so, if you’re expecting King Lear as performed by the RSC, you might be disappointed but if you just want to be entertained for a few hours with hijinks and some lovely language, you might have a good time. I’ll post the ticket link and other information when it’s ready. It runs the weekends of the 10th and 17th so mark your calendars now.

I could write about my personal continued march towards decrepitude and irrelevance. I through my back out last week. It’s nothing new. I’ve done it every five to ten years my whole adult life. It doesn’t happen because of anything I’ve done or overdone. I’ll just bend over to pick up a piece of paper or get something out of a low drawer and wham – the lumbosacral muscles go into spasm, pain sears through my lower spine and pelvis and I cannot move or bend without grave difficulty. It goes away in a week to ten days and is usually only bad for the first two or three. Heat, Tylenol, the occasional muscle relaxer and I can continue to live life. This was the first time this has happened since I’ve lived alone. All other times, I had a roommate or a partner around who could help haul me out of bed, fetch things, and take the brunt of my waspish disposition when I was in pain. I had to figure out how to get myself out of bed doing a strange crab like eight point turn as I wiggled this way and that until I could get myself finally to a standing position. I had to get my own glass of water from the kitchen. As I scuttled around, looking like Quasimodo after a three day bender, the cats watched me in what I assume was detached amusement – never bothering to offer to help. I am now on day eight. I’m moving fairly normally but I still have to be somewhat careful. I should be fine by the end of this weekend – until I need to pick up a dropped pencil or something and it spasms again.

But maybe I won’t write about any of that. Maybe I should just wait until the muse strikes. I’m waiting…

July 7, 2023

Supposedly the last few days have each broken successive records for the hottest days on planet earth, at least since modern humans began keeping accurate weather records. Given the oppressive sauna bath that is Alabama July going on outside of my comfortably air conditioned condominium, I’m inclined to believe it. It’s been somewhere in the 90s all week, and then add to that a rather nasty level of humidity. Occasionally the skies cloud over, thunder rumbles and there’s a brief respite of rain and a quick plunge of temperature by twenty degrees. But half an hour later, the cell is past and all that extra moisture is now in the air, raising the humidity and making it feel worse than it did before the rain. I shall not miss this climate should I ever move elsewhere. There are things I will miss – fireflies, mockingbirds, lighting storms observed from the safety of my back deck – but Alabama summer is not amongst them.

I remain a West Coaster in terms of what I believe is proper for climate. That begins with minimal humidity and temperatures topping out at about 80 to 85 at a maximum. I did learn to appreciate the dry heat of California Central Valley summers during my years in Sacramento but even that could get ridiculous at times. My first summer there, we had a heat wave in July. I was on night shift in the ER and it was nearly 90 degrees at 3 AM. They have no idea how hot that week actually got as the official thermometer stopped functioning at 117 and the temperature was still going up when that occurred. It did mean that the population of Sacramento was all out in the streets at all hours that much and imbibing far more beer than was good for it. I spent a good portion of those night shifts sewing up head lacerations on various young men who had made serious errors of judgment when it came to motor vehicles and power tools and, in one memorable case, a fight with someone armed with a shovel.

I’ve been watching some old reruns of ER late night on Hulu before bed. I never saw it during the 90s when it was in its heyday. I was busy living it and had no need to introduce those storylines into my home as entertainment at the time. Having worked in a few ERs over the year, they got the pace and the chaos and the camaraderie down pretty well. The soap opera plots involving everyone’s love life generally don’t happen in the work place and are a bit fanciful. And I hate it when the actors mispronounce a technical term. There’s nothing that takes me out of the moment faster than someone screwing up pseudomonas aeruginosa. Medicine does have its own language. I refer to it as Medicalese. It has about 50,000 words and most clinicians know and use roughly half of them. Which ones you use depend on specialty and job description. It has more acronyms than the military and even a few bizarre standard mispronunciations. Those of us who work in health care become fluent during our training as a matter of survival. The problem is that a lot of clinicians forget that the whole world is not privy to the language and they have grave difficulty reverting back to common English usage when discussing health subjects with patients or other lay people. I spend a good deal of my time as a translator and have worked very hard through my career to develop a bedside manner and language that can be easily understood.

One of the issues that’s currently bedeviling medicine in the wake of the pandemic is certain attitudes put forth by some in administration. The three year gap with work from home and other slowing down in clinical functions allowed them to become much more familiar with the power of big data sets. (An enormous part of my clinical effort is data entry to supply this unending appetite). More and more proposals are coming down from above on chronic care programs which have the stated goal of improving care. The problem is, however, that most of these administrative types are of upper middle class/professional class background and they therefore make certain cultural assumptions based on that, thinking that their way of viewing the world and problem solving is always correct. They have no practical field experience with case management, house calls, home health, long term care and the other areas in which I spend my days. They do not understand that huge swaths of the population do not have smart phones, well appointed homes with all the latest appliances, budgets that allow for dietary manipulation, resources for child care and elder care, or the hundreds of other battles that most of the population who live outside of gated communities must contend with. And then these administrators get very put out when I explain basic facts of life to them. My colleagues and I get together sometimes, look over the latest directive, and just laugh. It’s either that or cry. I’d be more than happy to introduce them to the real world of home care – to places where you dare not touch the furniture for fear of picking up some unpleasant insects, to places where you need to spray yourself down with Febreze before you get back in the car, to places where you can barely move from room to room because of the garbage piled everywhere. It might give them some ideas for more practical research projects.

I received an email today from the brand new chief of geriatrics at UC Davis inviting me to consider joining their growing division and looking for ways that UC Davis might collaborate with my own work. I wrote back explaining why I vowed never to set foot back on that campus again because of how that institution treated me and Steve, more or less destroying our lives. It may have been petty, but I felt better after sending it and even though those events were 25 years ago, the current chief better have a good handle on that history as the fallout from all of that caused significant problems between UCD and most of the eldercare service agencies in the region and reverberations went on for years and years. I wish her the best of luck in her endeavors.

I’m still in a bit of a churlish mood after that but I do have some things to look forward to this weekend. The Dungeons and Dragons group meets tomorrow for brunch (mimosas will be had) and I’m seeing the matinee of a new play, Boy, at Birmingham Festival Theater on Sunday. I’ve also got to figure out where to write the fourteen unfinished progress notes for the week in there somewhere. At least it’s not thirty two.

July 2, 2023

Well I seem to have gone down to once a week long posting from the twice a week or more that I was doing during the throes of the pandemic. There are things left to write about, both public health and non-public health related, but there isn’t the sense of urgency that I was feeling the last few years. That doesn’t mean things have improved. We’re still trying to figure out just what Covid has done to American society and it’s going to be a few more years before that’s all sorted out. In my own little corner, there are a number of things that I have noted.

First, the health system is fundamentally broken. We all get up and go to work every day and do our best but in terms of the system being able to provide timely services as needed for ailing Americans, fugeddaboutit. Roughly 20% of the clinical providers of health services left their jobs between the first of 2020 and today, mainly the generation slightly older than I (and I’m practically retirement age myself) and they are the folk with decades of experience and knowledge regarding how to best provide services and individualize care. The latest statistics suggest that, with this loss of senior individuals and the continued aging of the Baby Boom, we are going to have a shortage of somewhere between 50-100,000 MDs and up to 500,000 nurses by the middle of the next decade. The educational supply cannot keep up with the industry demands. It takes years to create a competent clinician in any capacity in health care. I had thirteen years of higher education (and I didn’t really become good at what I do until about 7-10 years after that) so even if we were to turn the spigot on now and start enrolling people in training programs now, they won’t really be ready before the crunch comes.

The bottlenecks are in weird places. Some of them are coming about due to issues with the supply chain. We’re always running into spot shortages of medications which is a new thing. And if there’s no antibiotics or IV normal saline, there’s no way to do surgery safely. Some of it is in support industries. There’s an elevator in my hospital that’s been out of service for six months as they can’t get someone with the requisite skills (or the parts) to repair it. Appointments in chronic care specialties are hard to come by. The combination of aging and long Covid symptoms are creating a larger and larger number of individuals with chronic disease burden in need of care and they fill up the available appointments making it more and more difficult to get others in to those specialty clinics. If you need a psychiatrist, neurologist, rheumatologist, or geriatrician – be prepared to wait six months. If you’re lucky. There are no real national plans in place to address these issues from what I can tell. And local leaders are more focused on next quarters balance sheets than any sort of long range planning.

Then there’s the music-theater performance world which is nationally in free fall. It was buoyed through the worst of the pandemic by PPP loans and other government granting mechanisms but with the official end of the pandemic, it’s in grave difficulties. Not a week goes by where I don’t hear of some respected theater company going out of business, scaling their seasons way back, or pausing in production for a period of time for additional fund raising. All of the financials are down. Audiences are down – the older core group of the theater going public is still not completely comfortable going out and crowding into enclosed spaces. Plus, how many died or are more disabled from long Covid symptoms? We don’t know. Donations are down – these are uncertain financial times and people are directing their money elsewhere – plus the redirection of money upwards means that it gets spent at the whims of those who control it and the current generation of corporate titans aren’t the type to spend their money on libraries, museums and concert halls. Corporate giving is down – corporate America is holding its cash close. Government grants and donations are down – theater in particular can be a difficult sell. Some view fine arts as inherently elitist and others do not approve of the mirror that good theater holds up to society, preferring a sanitized version of the culture over the realities.

We have completed our first week of A Midsummer Nights Dream rehearsals. It has minimal budget but does need to recoup some in ticket sales so mark your calendars for the weekends of August 10th and 17th. I am very proud of my actors who seem to get what I’m trying to do with the show and it’s pace and easy breezy tone. This may come together with fewer difficulties than I feared. I still have a number of technical things to figure out though, mainly dealing with lighting. Set and costumes are under control. My Lysander was involved in auto accident last night and suffered a concussion. He will be fine but has been told to rest over the long weekend. I went and sat with him for a bit in the ER. They are very scary places when you’re the patient but I am very good at translating medicalese into English and back again.

I was in his position myself thirty five years ago. In June of 1988, I drove from Seattle down to Sacramento to go apartment hunting so I would have somewhere to live during my internship. I knew what neighborhood I wanted and was running around and looking at apartment units when I was T-boned at the corner of 25th and K streets in Midtown. I hit my head, had a concussion and woke up in the back of the ambulance being taken in to the ED at UC Davis where I was to start work in just a few weeks. The confusion cleared rapidly but I didn’t feel quite right for about another three months and had a penchant for falling asleep anytime I stopped moving – but maybe that was internship. Some say I made a full recovery. Some say I’ve never been quite right in the head.

The sequel to that particular story involved the ER nurse assigned to care for me while I was under observation. I was a trauma patient so full body check and she helped me out of my clothes. She must have seen something she liked because she was in hot pursuit for the next year. I wasn’t out yet. That happened about a year later. That was when she showed up on my doorstep looking for a date seven months pregnant with someone else’s child and when Steve and I, having breakfast in our bathrobes, basically told her to get a clue. Steve thought it was hysterical. I wasn’t so sure.

June 24, 2023

I haven’t written a long post for a week. I suppose this is what comes of trying to balance a more than full time job with directing Shakespeare and trying to get the final edits in on a third book. Not that I’m complaining or anything. I figure that my usual round of over commitments has a net positive effect on the world and I usually am in the right place at the right time for whatever is expected of me. I perfected the art of being in two places at once a number of decades ago. I just have difficulties with three places at once.

What should I write about? There’s really nothing new to report in regards to pandemic news other than it’s still out there and there should be new boosters available in the fall. There’s a new omicron variant XBB that seems to be causing some issues and I believe they are tweaking for greater efficacy against that one. Most of the cases I’m hearing about at the moment are the stay home and feel miserable for a couple of days and then you’re over it variety. The problem is you’ve got about a 1/8 chance with every infection of developing significant long Covid symptoms so every case you avoid can save you mucho grief in the future.

The big news story of the day is the rapidly deteriorating situation in Russia where the Wagner group has turned on the Putin regime in a mutiny which may or may not be a well planned coup. The stories that are emerging from Russia and the Ukraine are conflicting and all I can say is that I hope not too many innocent civilians get caught in the cross-fire. I’m also rather concerned as to just who is going to end up with the various armaments, nuclear and conventional and just what they’re going to do with them. The Wagner group are no heroes; they’re a band of thug mercenaries so I can’t say they’d be an improvement on Russia’s professional military.

I do have travel plans for Eastern Europe this fall, but I’m going no further East than Poland and Slovakia so I don’t think there will be any problems. I’m putting off visits to Kyiv, Moscow, St. Petersburg, and Belarus for a while. I have no particular wish to experience being a tourist in a war zone. I’ve been a tourist caught in a hurricane a couple of times and that’s been bad enough. I cannot recommend riding out a hurricane in a beach front hotel on a Caribbean island as Steve and I once did. Fortunately, we had not splurged for the ocean view room. We had a garden view on the back of the building and were relatively well protected.

I am taking a passel of children to a production of Peter Pan tomorrow afternoon. The last time that show was done in this particular theater, I played Mr. Darling, but that was 19 years ago and I’ve aged out of the part. I could probably still get away with Captain Hook or Smee. Two of my charges are teens who will probably roll their eyes at the ‘Do You Believe in Fairies?’ moment. The other is seven so I am hoping for some strong belief from her. Personally, I will probably mutter sotto voce ‘Believe in them? Why I know hundreds…’

First read through for A Midsummer Night’s Dream happens on Monday. I haven’t directed Shakespeare since 1984 so I hope I’m up to the task. I’ve been doing a bunch of script study and making some cuts of some of the more esoteric classical references that do absolutely nothing to move the plot along. I think I’ve got a grip on it and have about seven weeks to mold it into shape. If I can get my actors to get the tone right, the end result should be a lot of fun. I was out at the theater this morning meeting with the tech folk. Set and costumes are well in hand.

I’m still casting about for the next writing project after the third volume of The Accidental Plague Diaries is complete and out. Suggestions are being taken from the floor.

June 17, 2023

The jet lag has come under control, things are relatively calm at work and I’m on the first day of a three day weekend, so I suppose things are right with the world. Of course, the prospect of A Midsummer Night’s Dream which must be analyzed, annotated, blocked, and led through a design process, is hanging over my head and there’s that pesky third volume of The Accidental Plague Diaries that must be finished up and unleashed upon the world later this summer. It should be enough to keep me out of trouble for the next few months. The rest of 2023 is coming into shape: Midsummer, book launch, trip to Europe, holidays. 2024 remains terra incognita. There’s a show in early 2024 for which I’m lobbying for a role and I want to do a trip to Asia or the Middle East later that year sometime but the rest, as they say, is silence.

We haven’t looked at the pandemic for a while. Part of that is because I’ve had other subjects about which to write (at long last) and part of that is because, with the end of the public health emergency, primary source information regarding morbidity, mortality, spread, hospital utilization and all of the other myriad details that the federal government collected and standardized so that we could try to understand what was happening in real time, have once again devolved to the hundreds upon hundreds of individual city, county, and state public health departments with no central collective authority. In fact, monies allocated for continued study of the pandemic for a better understanding and preparedness for the next one (and there will be a next one) were stripped out during the recent budget negotiations. I’ll bet you can guess at the insistence of which political party.

Some basic truths: The pandemic isn’t over. That’s wishful thinking. No one really knows how many people are getting sick and dying currently due to the ending of federally funded data collection, but when that came to an end, the number of new cases daily nationwide was holding relatively steady at somewhere between 15-20,000 and the number of daily deaths was running 200-250. Assuming that these are the new steady state, that’s about 6 million infections and 90,000 deaths annually, bringing Covid into 5th or 6th place in the annual causes of mortality race moving forward. There is going to be some reshuffling among the top ten over the next few decades due to the senescence of the enormous baby boom generation and due to Covid itself.

Somewhere around 12-15% of Covid survivors develop post Covid syndromes of various stripes. We’re still trying to figure it all out and come up with standardized diagnostic criteria, not to mention effective treatment. But pretty much every time you get a Covid infection, you have to make a d8 at best and d6 at worst saving throw and, if you roll a one, you’re in trouble. Post Covid more than doubles the risk of venous thrombosis and pulmonary embolism, diabetes, heart arrhythmias, chronic lung disease, and death. As Covid continues to circulate, we’ll all have a chance of being exposed over and over again through our lifetimes… and every time the fates roll the dice.

The one real weapon we have remains the vaccines. They continue to be in steady supply and any number of virologists world wide who understand these things far better than I do continue to look at the data regarding vaccine protection, genetic mutation, and all the rest and make the best recommendations they can regarding boosters. The last big push was for the bivalent booster that became available last fall and which had a better effectiveness against the various omicron strains. Fortunately, we are still in the age of omicron – or at least the WHO hasn’t found it necessary to reach into its bag of Greek letters for a new name since omicron wiped the field at the 2021 holidays. So, if you’ve had a booster at any time from September 2022 on, you’re pretty up to date.

Patients are asking me about future boosters. The messaging on this has been somewhat muddled and reports are not easy to ferret out since the end of the public health emergency. As I understand it, the FDA made a very weak recommendation for a spring booster for the elderly or those who were immunocompromised but didn’t really follow through with any sort of push. The data wasn’t great that it would improve things over the previous fall’s bivalent booster. However, there appears to be a push gearing up for a fall booster together with flu shot season. Full details aren’t available yet so I would just keep an eye on your favorite news source and see what they report. I’m planning on taking one.

The official CDC death toll for Covid remains a bit over 1.1 million to date. Assuming the numbers don’t change, it will take us a decade or so to finish up the second million. The first only took about two and a half years. These are just the pure Covid infection deaths. Deaths from disease processes developed due to prior Covid infection or from Long Covid aren’t included. The ancillary deaths from societal disruption – deaths in accidents, suicides among mental health patients, homicides – they’re all up substantially. The Reagan era wholesale attrition of the mental health system ensured that when we ended up with a society wide stressor, that the resources to assist the more fragile would not be available and we have all noticed the increase in anxiety, fear being channeled into anger, depression and dysthymia, and risk taking behaviors that have accompanied the wrenching changes of the last few years. And I think things are going to get worse before they get better. The federal government seems to be heading down a path of lets pretend the pandemic didn’t exist. All of the economic social supports that made the last few years bearable are being dismantled. Vulnerable sectors of the economy are going to have a very difficult time. As president of the board of Opera Birmingham, I am privy to the financials and the company did well through the pandemic given its eligibility for the payroll protection act. But all of those funds have been reappropriated and we’re faced with a traditional cultural event attending audience that still doesn’t feel fully comfortable gathering in theaters and public and private funding streams majorly reduced due to the number of competing needs. I think over the next five years or so a lot of arts producing organizations will be unable to continue. The ones that survive will get stronger with less competition for resources. But fewer producing companies means fewer opportunities for artists and fewer voices out there in the marketplace of ideas and the community as whole becomes poorer.

I can’t solve any of this so I’m going to bed early to fall asleep to reruns of ER on Hulu. I never saw it in its original run so I decided to finally give it a whirl. It’s a bit over the top, but the actual patient and staff interactions are fairly true to life. I do, however, wish they had employed a medical dialogue coach. There’s at least one major mispronunciation of a technical term per episode and every time it happens, it takes me right out of the story. And then there’s the weird mispronunciations in Medicalese which I’ve never been able to figure out. Why should centimeter be pronounced sawnameter by highly educated English speakers? I’m sure there’s a perfectly reasonable explanation but I haven’t a clue as to what it might be.